Day 3 or 4 or whatever. Still no reply. I'm freakin' out, but trying not to read into it too much. I wish I had more confidence in my abilities. Unfortunately, I do not.
On another note, I've been to Church twice in the last few months. Crazy, right? It's easier when you have people to go with. But, that's kind of the point of Church, right-- communing with other people in worship of the Holy Trinity?
I realize that maybe I've been thinking of religious ritual in the wrong way. It not that if you don't do it, you're doing wrong. It's merely a prescriptive way to remain pious. I'd always viewed adhering to specific and rigorous ritual as just another reason to nit-pick at a person's spirituality. However, if you have a good environment, a truly Christian one, they're merely suggested actions to tie you to worship physically as well as mentally. If you don't do it right, you're not going to go to hell, and no evil nun is going to slap you on the hands with a cane (at least I hope not!). Give it a try, see how it feels. If you're uncomfortable, dial it down to your personal variation and maybe work your way up. As long as the focus is on exalting. And don't let anyone ever destroy your faith over something so trivial. Judgement is reserved for God.
I hope none of that was heretical...
I think that was the most religious thing I've ever expressed outwardly.
Anyway...
You remind me of your Mom.
ReplyDeleteShe tried to save my soul a few times, and she still liked me! (I think) You are right it is reserved for God who ever your God is.