Out of time and place

Do you ever feel like you're somehow out of place; out of sync with the rest of the world? I close my eyes and picture myself in another time and I feel the same as I always feel-out of pace with the rest of the world. There's an unrest in my mind and I can't seem to make it quiet. It blurs my peripheral vision. Not in the literal sense, but in the way one would consider the vision used to forge one's path to the future. I can't take in all the angles. I take a step, make a decision, and suddenly I'm blindsided by a dozen other thing coming at me sideways. But maybe that's life. The world is just too vast for us to calculate all the angles. Maybe I should take a more buddhist perspective to it all. I'm trying so hard to make a plan, find goals, gather the things that I want, that I'm losing missing the point all together. Tunnel vision. That's it. Tunnel vision. I'm so focused on the blip off in the distance that I'm missing the beauty all around me. It may not be my ideal spot, but maybe that's a problem with me and not the location. Perhaps it's time I start turning outwards to admire the universal aesthetics of life instead of judging everything by my personal standards of beauty. GREs tomorrow. Maybe I can stop being so anxious now. Maybe I can relax and take in the peripheries of this moment. Good luck.