Indeed, the sun has already set as I write this post. The nights are cold in 京都 now. It’s not just getting cold, it is cold. I imagine this is just the beginning, too. Hiro really wasn’t kidding. It’s freaking cold here. It rained all day today.
Maybe that’s why I didn’t wake up until 8:30 today. I would have missed class if Jen hadn’t come to get me. I’m grateful for Jen. We look out for each other.
We were “studying” last night for the Midterm (中間テスト) last night and we got to talking. Earlier we’d been to an EAP Kansai gathering to talk to other UC students and some Japanese students that will be coming to the UCs next year as 留学生 like us. It was nice. Got free dinner. But it made me remember that I’m just an exchange student. I forget sometimes that I won’t be here forever.
I was thinking about how much I’d miss the friends that I’ve made here and I shared that with Jen. How much I’d miss Hide, Kohsuke, Maz, Sam, and Nicole. Then she reminded me that we live on opposite ends of the state as well. I’m going to miss having her around all the time. She’s a good friend, even if I do have to remind her of bills (^__^). I’m going to miss the people here, definitely. It’s starting to become more of a reality to me.
Up until now I’d been focused on missing the people back home. Somewhere in there I made some great friends here, too.
Like I keep saying… doomed.
I’ll have to relish my time here.
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Relish. They don’t have relish here, but they do like to pickle a lot of things.
Anyway, I’m going home in March for a little over a week. It’s going to be whirlwind, and the jet lag is going to suck so hard, but I think it’s worth it. Just knowing I have a ticket home makes me feel better about being here right now. I can focus on my time here, knowing it’s not indefinite…even though I somehow wish it were indefinite.
Jen laughed at me when I was talking about it. I was explaining, “I leave for Tokyo on a night bus on the 15th of March, then fly home on the 16th in the afternoon. On the return, I fly out of Ontario at 6AM and should hit Narita on Friday. Then I take another night bus which puts me home on Saturday morning.”
Did you catch that?
I have two homes. Not two houses, two homes.
Doomed.
I should really learn to detach myself more easily. I don’t know though. I kind of like how attached I get. I feel like it’s a good quality. Loyalty.
I am changing here. I just need to make sure I don’t lose the good stuff. A friend of mine paid me a great compliment a couple of days ago. He says I should be proud of how my parents raised me. He said that I was considerate and not like the stereotypical American. Coming from him, that means a lot.
I am proud of how my parents raised me. I feel like my mom’s experience living around the world helped me be a little worldlier before coming here.
Love you Mom. Can’t wait to see you.
Oh yeah and you too Dad. (hehe) Just kidding!!! I love you both the same. Everyone has been playing with Mr. Rabbit when they come to my room. I think that bunny just has a face that makes you want to personify it, but no one can do it as well as you.
Hippity hop, hippity hop, hippity hippity hop hop hop.
Love until later,
Caitlin D.
P.S.- All you taikonauts… I’ll be expecting my hug…at least one big giant one and about 50 smaller ones. I know how many I’ll need to get me through till August after I come back home.









